Below are the 3 most recent journal entries recorded in pookie's LiveJournal:

Saturday, September 28th, 2002
10:23 am	the art of forgetting one is alive I hate when things like this happen. They've always happened the same way until now. The same awkward confusion, the same overdramatic disillusionment and abandonment, the same ridiculous excuses for the things I don't want to understand. Oh, boys. When I'm crushing, or when someone else is crushing on me, I can't imagine that life could possibly have any other meaning than to procreate. Such a rush of the best kind of emotion...but at the same time that cloudy, nagging feeling that something is just not right. Very sexually self-deluded. I am such an ass for laughing at men when they are at their most vulnerable state. But, breeder or deceiver? I guess you need both. So, K. What more can I say about K that I actually remember sober? He is always surprising me. He can talk for like 20 minutes about selling drugs, but then we'll talk about life and he seems to have such a broader angle than I do. He is very patient with me. I am not sure why. I am not sure what he expects to gain from this. I can't imagine what I have to offer. It amuses me that any (No really, ANY) girl in my situation says the same fucking retarded things to herself about how worthless and unsightly she is. When really, all guys want is ass. No, but still. I just don't want to become submissive. I don't want to be a unit. I want to belong only to me. SELF ABSORBED. I've decided that the key to dating is finding someone with similar rules. I've decided that I like him. But I really really really don't want to. And I'm listening to 747 (Kent). How fucking ironic. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 14th, 2001
6:28 pm	good will hunting a la belin TheBelin: But I can think of cheaper ways to entertain myself, where I don't have to wait for 30 other people to play catch-up. TheBelin: Hell, I even get paid to program here, and I enjoy programming immensely. TheBelin: If I had gone to school for it, then i would be paying them to entertain me while I learn how to program. If you are interested in something, you can learn it without college. You will find it entertaining. TheBelin: So, in your circumstance.... You are going to college, your first year will be taken with all sorts of "requirements" TheBelin: you will be doing things that they require, so that your over-all debt increases. You may get a few classes that you like. If so, good job. You will know no-one at the beginning of the year, and will do great on your school work. Homework will get done, and you'll have all sorts of extra time. TheBelin: Then you will meet people. TheBelin: They are far more entertaining than your homework.... and your homework will begin to suffer, after all, you are in college to keep yourself entertained. TheBelin: Then, second year... based on your first semester grades, you'll have passed your classes, unless you meet some REALLY interesting people. The second year has more interesting classes, since you've gotten a few requirements out of the way. You'll still know the same people though, and there wil be more of them this year. It gets problematic maintaining your social lifestyle with the classload, so something suffers. That's college when your only there to entertain yourself. TheBelin: I hope you have fun, because that IS the whole point isn't it? (Comment on this)
Friday, April 20th, 2001
11:47 pm	black bean soup (Comment on this)